病.. 社会.. 人..

人们说..
人生路上总有许许多多的路人..
路人甲; 路人乙; 路人丙..
他们都只是生命里的过客..
都只是过眼云烟..
或许会在我们生命的一页留白..
也或许一点零碎的记忆也没留..
曾经也许..
我期许的不复存在..
我错了..
错在处理问题上不够细腻..
因为我再次让情感彻底的欺压在我理性上..
她的干脆利落我欣赏..
从她恨的人变朋友再变情人..
再从情人变朋友然后变她恨的人..
然后再变回朋友
此刻我的心是百感交集的..
原来结果答案在一早就已定案..
只是碍于误会和尴尬而划成了两个平行线..
曾经的邂逅不是虚幻一场..
因为原来自己还是那么在意..
在意的是这份得来不易的友谊..
认识她本来就已经历不少沧桑..
何况是现在..
从深爱转化成朋友的爱我是办得到的..
不当她恨的人..
因为那样会不明不白..
答案结果我总于懂了..
在意才会如此不是吗?
无限感概..
you are still the apple of my eye..


我说..
人总有一种病态..
一种难以言喻的病态..
因为这个社会病了..
所以人也病了..
病的是人的思考逻辑..
还是社会道德的趋向..
快乐其实很简单..
在世事的冲击下..
人不懂得当初的原则信念..
反之不容易满足现有的一切..
似乎人很难找回当初快乐的原因..
然而搬弄是非是小人寻找的快乐吗?
为何人会如此..
我想因为人病了..
悲观成了现今社会主流..
emo 悲伤这字眼就是最好证明..
情绪低落疯狂发泄后..
却找不到自己其实因为什么而抓狂..
无明火苗点着了..
悔不当初犯下的错..
持有的借口或理由也模糊了..
却还是那么迷茫..
我想这个社会的人病了..
an apple a day 也治愈不了吧..


p/s : Ah Tan.. 不懂你有没有机会来到我的部落格.. 但我想说.. 你恨坚强.. 你让我懂我所面对的一切根本就不是问题.. 希望在明天.. 路难走还是要走.. 援手在此待命.. 加油..

我是无赖..so what?

昨夜的我是悲痛的..
不了解..
答案我也不要了..
只是不懂..
为何今天的自己是如此悲愤..
怒的是自己被情绪牵着走?
还是自己还在意你的每一句话?
不懂..
也不想懂了..
我此刻最在意的人..
对你无私的付出而换来的是伤害和诬赖..
任何人中伤我我都可以接受..
但为什么是你?
心彻底的死了..

我不会再理会你对我的攻击..
你要如何批评评价我..
我无言以对..
但人总有底线..
别越过了我的底线..
如果友谊只是美丽的空幻..
你不要了..
我可惜..
但我尊重你的决定..
那是我对你的爱最后的表示..
但请不要再越过我的底线好吗?
感情没了我不怨你..
我对你问心无愧..
你也自重点..
我自认从没生气或恨一个人..
如果你要成为第一人..
我无限欢迎..
反正由爱生恨也是经典一句..
撕破脸不认人也好..
那至少我可以坦荡荡的..
不用再伪装..
什么绅士风范我都不要了..
我要回我自己..
久违的快乐我来了..

take charge..!

attended soft-skill program, ' Take Charge ' organized by UTAR..
to share..

life is full of choice..
every moment is a choice..

my university, UTAR slogan

' MY CHOICE.. '

everything start with our very own choice..
every choice is our very own choice..
depends on how and what we choose..
then how things will turn out..
be responsible for the choice we have make..
it is our own choice..
just don't blame anything around us..
we can choose to be depressed or choose to be motivated..
is depends on your own choice..
not others..
what happen, happened..
be strong and face it..

it mean every problem begin with our choice..
every choice we make is a good choice at the beginning..
if it turn out to be a bad choice at the end and become a problem..
not to blame this and that..
blame ourselves who decided to be that way..
but well..
no worries, problem is fun..

Rizal, the speaker said :

' NO problem.. NO fun.. '

*thumb up*
that's very true..
i agreed with it..
down part of our life bring our life more meaningful..
if there is no challenge or obstacle..
life is sucks..

well..
life is full of choice..
so..
CHOOSE-LAH..
and stop Bangau-ing..
if you don't know what you want today..
don't talk about future..
set a target for life from now onwards..

note : stop Bangau-ing stand for stop blaming.. the bangau meaning actually came from a malay song - ' bangau oh bangau.. ' (:

time to let go

by Stickgirl

老套点..
祝福你..

谢谢你

谢谢你, 因如此我生命里有了曲折..
谢谢你, 因如此我人生日记里有了那么的曾经的彩虹..
谢谢你, 因如此我瞭了自己爱情的盲点..
谢谢你, 因如此我相信爱情真的有时候在一开始就有了结果答案..
谢谢你, 因如此我在沉溺于里的奇迹里醒了..
谢谢你, 因如此我感受到痛的实在..
谢谢你, 因如此我研发了各种泪的流法..
谢谢你, 因如此我知道原来我可以为爱情这样的疯狂和无私..
谢谢你, 因如此我学会爱要说出来并付诸行动..
谢谢你, 因如此我懂了付出和回报不一定是正比的..
谢谢你, 因如此我有了那美丽堂皇的用语 - " 不在乎天长地久, 只在乎曾经拥有.. "
谢谢你, 因如此我终于有了情感驾驭在理性上的时候..
也因为如此我明白朋友情人的定义价位..

也谢谢你, 因如此在我生命第20年第一次品尝了螃蟹, 让我从此爱上咸蛋..

九把刀写过那么一句

" 爱情不是人生的全部.. 但却是我人生的味道.. "

何尝我又不是如此呢?
爱得深切的痛证明了我青春不留白..
爱得轰轰烈烈证明了我曾经的年少..
朋友, 汕说 :
如果我是你, 我会证明给她看, 没有你的我会更好.. 因为我怕输..
赞..!
但因为你的而产生的那股热血让我连输都无所谓了..
这正比喻了我自己的幼稚..
我总是口沫横飞的当朋友们的军师猛将..
到头来就只是狗屁抹屎而已..
是时候证明我的名句并运用在自己了..
用时间和忙碌来麻痹自己的我说, 我不再需要麻痹两字..
而需要痊愈两字..
我怕输的个性回来吧..
争气点, 振作点吧..
XD

最后..
谢谢你让我终于不再一直 say no 或犹豫..
而真真正正的踏出了许多的第一步..
分手后的日子..
我无悔了..
因为如此我生命活得更有意义了..
鲜明的伤痕和淌着血的心也因此饱满了..
下一站会更好..
我不怨了..
我学感恩..
哇靠..
超屌的..

Gua Tempurung

visited to Gua Tempurung yesterday and we go for the Third tour which named Top of the World & Short River Adventure..
which cost us only RM10 per person..
the malay lady give us a discounted price.. (discounted RM1.. lol..)
maybe we look sweet and look good..
haa..
the cave trip is around 2.4km if i'm not mistaken and it need us to walk around 900 stair case before the short river adventure..
which is around 600 plus stair case to the top of the cave.. (so called top of the world..)
and around 200 plus stair case before go down to the river.. (river adventure..)
the river adventure make me biting the car key most of the time while in the river..
lame..
i would said the cave trip is a little challenging for those who are baby seated by their parents but sure would be easy for those active and evil person like me.. XD
2 things happened which i would call it as interesting..
one of my friend Yi Yun faint after the tired climb of 600 plus stair case..
and another one..

damn it..!

gosh..
i still need you for my next visit to Gua Tempurung..
i still need you for jogging in coming days..
i still need you for playing basketball la wei..
why you go in a sudden?
izzit after torture by me for years..
or maybe i murdered you..
LOL

group snap

yet..
another tiring day..

another day in Ipoh

went ipoh with cousin and friends..
another last minute decision..
Mc.D once again and bring them to eat the superb spicy taiwan sausage nearby Jusco which Andy torture me years back..
i cried in 10 seconds time only after eating and drank a lot of water.. (please trust me.. that's really A LOT..)
dare you to try..!
my friend Phaik Ji said she surrender though she love spicy..
if you got guts and want to challenge or spicy lover..
you may contact me..
we might arrange the time and see if possible i will bring you there so you can taste it yourself..!

James + Dawn

美女 take 1

傻婆 take 1

傻婆 take 2

why my cousin's mouth open so big huh?

done..!

donuts or drinking water?

life is full of junctions..
decision awaiting us to decide..
no turning back after decision made..
what to do?
life is cruel..

am i really need to push myself everyday to be super tiring so i could bear with the pain?
forget the pain and don't mess up my own life please..

---

Sorority Row

would be a nice movie if you like horror movie..
i would rate it as a normal bloody horror movie..
moral of the story..
don't fool and joke too over..
it might be possible to turn into something we cannot deal with..

不要开太大的玩笑..

后果或许是我们承担不起的..

并非无题

望着镜子里头的自己..
坠入了那深无底洞的眼睛..
瞳孔的光芒日渐混浊..
理性与情感的交错..
驾驭在上的是前者或后者?
混淆了..
面具用于武装..
掩饰自己的不理性..
掩饰自己感情的脆弱..
掩盖眼泪的滚动..
戴着面具的我..
顿时迷茫了..
错只在自己无法抽离那个角色..

望着那角色长长的身影..
那逐渐转淡的影子..
惆怅现实与梦境的落差..
回忆似乎在对我咆哮..
对着我不停的呐喊..
一股莫名其妙的情感顿时涌出..
感慨感伤的是..
事实的变化无常..
心里很不是滋味..
虚无幻境..
内心仍然在挣扎..
无奈原来自己也逐渐步向甜甜圈的定律..
光鲜华丽的外在却难掩空洞的中心..
情绪久久不能平复..

我享受那压下快门瞬间的快感..
摄下那美丽动人的瞬间..
够了..
不再留恋..
陈旧的相片就像封锁的回忆..
不想再碰触的伤痛..
因心里懂了那有多么的不值得..
心寒只因那本是熟悉的人原来比陌生人来得更陌生..
如果沉溺在挫败回忆中..
痛苦会越来越深..
伤害也自然更大..
反之..
摆脱自己的迷失..
向另一个层次迈进..
人总不能停留在过去..
需要的就只是动力..

世事没有像彩虹般的美..
也没有童话故事里的结局..
只有人们如何坚强的面对与解决..
放眼望去..
有多少人能越过障碍..
又有多少人就此放弃而颓废..
如何抉择那就见仁见智了..
生命就这么的短, 这么的脆弱..
人没有回头路..
没有机会 game over 后又重来..
抱握当下不更为实际吗?
未来漫漫长路..
为自己生命喝彩..
踏着不好的回忆往前走..
走一次无悔的路吧..

Ipoh - Lost World of Tambun

day before class started..
went to Ipoh, Lost World of Tambun..
i do appreciate the outing invited by them..
i enjoyed, have a great time and it's just too awesome..
thanks again for the genting trip and also this..
i have my ever great semester break this time though bad things did happened..
recovering speed are not as good as i expected yet i'm totally positive now..
forget about the bad one and i said hard time is just a piece of shit to me..
i'm gotta get through it..
not going to spoil my own life because of that..
though i'm real hurt again today..
sigh..

lunch time..

sexy

group snap

random

bye..!

---

Pandorum

went to movie after a tiring day in Lost World of Tambun..
overall the movie is normal..
but i like the story..
and in some way the movie did remind us about environmental issue..
pollution awareness that lack of resources and water on earth after years..
remind us on what human nature are..
it appear the human behavior and how they react after off of restriction or when they are fear and tend to survive..
check it out and feel it..
what will the movie remind you..
though my friend said some part of the movie are quite bored..
and it's quite true..
but i still like the story.. (:

守候

shock that my sir, Anthony that i admire drop me a comment yesterday..
thanks and it's really my pleasure.. XD
he share with me this song and i would like to share this with my friends.. (:
he said :

故事后半部，
如果我是那车夫，我会唱首歌给她，

守候 - 5566

满天星星 你的眼睛 像旧电影反覆剪辑我们的回忆
是那颗星 我非常确定 会永远闪烁在我心里

雨后的夜里 夜空变得好美好干净
眼前的你忽然的沉静
风吹过发际 无声轮廓有一双眼睛
纯洁而透明 我最爱的你 刹那变记忆

温度冷冷地 最怕自己一个人呼吸
穿得再厚也变得多余
身边少了你 说话只剩空荡的回音
好想抱紧你 我最爱的你 如今在哪里

幸福时候 别来找我 带著你的快乐和他继续往前走
不属于我 我不会难过 我知道有一样的天空

幸福走后 请记得我 我会紧握拳头把那伤心都赶走
你要记得 至少还有我 一直在为你默默守候

我想说的是..
好应景..

a touch story.. XD

1.55am i start telling Kiki this touching story..
2.15am i copy paste here and edited a little bit here.. just to share.. (:

又是老掉牙的开头啦..

话说很久很久以前..
有一对年轻的恋人在八国联军攻打中国时..
因为男生被迫从军而被迫分离..
由于通讯不发达..
于是两人便协议用一块钱金币作为信物..
以便两人日后相见好相认..

终于战争平息了..
年迈的两人也因时光而改变了..
女方嫁入豪门而男方也因战争平息而转当车夫..
就在一个风和日丽的下午..
在火车站前..
车夫的他与贵妇的她终于相遇了..
看见一副华丽光鲜的她..
他自卑了..
久久不敢抬起头来..
默默地问女生要去哪里..
女生回他后也沉静了..
终于来到目的地..
男生说 ：小姐.. 五毛钱.. 谢谢..
就在这时.. 女生一眼望着男生并抛出一块金币..
男生赫然.. 男生赫然停顿了..
情绪高昂的他..
你猜男生会说什么..




神经病啊..
要五毛给一块..
你说奇怪不奇怪..


这首儿歌就是这样来的..

三轮车
跑得快
上面坐个老太太
要五毛
给一块
你说奇怪不奇怪

ROFL..
不明白?
因为男生真的很爱面子呀..!


其实男生也需要疼爱..
就像落寂后的蜡笔小新也需要时间来再次带给人们欢笑..
神奇的小叮当也需要时间来让蜡笔小新重拾欢笑..
只因自己也是同样的寂寞..

夜

走在夜里寂静的道路上..
仿佛空气是冻结的..
让自己的思绪放空, 反锁懊恼..
但那冷风的鼓舞下..
让自己的思绪彭湃飞扬吧..
冥想..
该是时候对自己设立人生新目标..
突破自己, 破蛹而出..
我说我要找回那久违的快乐..
and i said i deserve a better one..!

听不到

听不到 - 梁静茹

夜 黑夜 寂寞的夜里
气 生气 对自己生气
软弱的电话又打给你

想 听你 那边的空气
有 什麽 精采的话题
你还是温柔给我婉转的距离

我的声音在笑 泪在飙
电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那麽大
为何我要忘你无处逃

我的声音在笑 泪在飙
电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那麽小
为何我的真心你听不到

会 很会 伪装我自己
你 不该 背我的秘密
沉重都给我微笑给你

奔 狂奔 空旷的感情
走 暴走 暴走的伤心
透明的叹息最後还是我的秘密

听不到 听不到我的执着
扑通 扑通一直在跳
直到你有一天能够明了
我做得到 我做得到

生命

Surrogates

robotic surrogates take over our living and what we need to do is lives in our home sweet home..
it seem like human have their prefect life..
stay away from dangerous..
is true that life is prefect because there is no fear.. no pain.. no crime..
but sometime, life just would not be that prefect..
as if life will be that prefect..
i would not call it as l.i.f.e..
life should have ups and downs..
so i said..

' 不完美造就更精彩的生命和生活.. '

l.o.v.e

又一个不眠的夜里..
在永双部落格里看到了这么一句..

' Love 不是得到之后就放进口袋里、或变平淡了就说 Bye 的东西，
而是需要呵护和经营的生命体.. '

我拍案叫绝..
人与人之间本来就有着一种情愫..
一种微妙的关系..
爱更是极之巧妙..
俩个生命体的相遇..
摩擦后泛生的情感..
那或许就是传说中的 Love..
我并不懂那生命体的真正意义..
我也不会 define Love..
但至少我懂..
爱与幸福就是要有一颗敢梦的心,
再加上兩倍的努力和三倍的行动来成就那百分之一百的幸福和成功恋曲..
也罢..
哪怕就只有百分之八十的幸福和成功恋曲..
何乐而不为..
至少是唱丰收的爱情季节..
而不是调谢的玫瑰..
又有多少人能明白爱情不是说来就来, 说去就去的呢?
至少现在的我明白了..
难得可贵也让我不再踏上不归路..
在爱情飘逸的年代..
弥漫着的都是我们年轻人谈恋爱的气息下..
爱情的意义究竟是升华了?
还是已成了时代齿轮转动后的一种游戏?
儿戏的爱情我不要..
我不再追求新鲜感..
我更需要的是一个避风港..

Malacca09

Visited to Malacca last Thursday..
thanks 小黑 for spending his precious time..
(:

River Cruise

RM10

Eye on Malaysia

Perigi Raja

青云亭

Christ Church Melaka

炮台

Church of St. Francis Xavier

Malacca River

weirdo

Kampung Kling Mosque

Kampung Hulu Mosque

random

have been wanted to travel around in Malaysia since a long long time ago..
wanted to travel all travel point in Malaysia before i finish my bachelor degree program..
but always feel not motivated and didn't move my ass on it..
well..
something happened make me decided to move now..
life is short..
life is unpredictable..
we just dunno what will happen next and what will things become next..
i'm learning to be a better person..
i know my own weakness and i'm gonna improve on all of it..
life is just not about ourselves.. it is about everyone around us..
life is not just about our own emotional and our own feeling..
life is about responsibility..
life is about how we live and how we appreciate what we have..

' life is like a box of chocolate.. you never know what you get.. ' - forest gump

stop complaining and stop blaming..
step forward and move forward..
we are the one we will be going to change our life..
and not others that would determine our life..
love life..

Timing

「Timing不對」，是眾多分手理由裡，
最模棱兩可、卻又叫人無可反駁的一種。

Timing不對，泛指我不是不愛你的，
只是嘛，你在錯誤時刻出現在我的生命裡，
你所要的東西，將來很難說，
但現在的我絕對沒有能力給你，
所以啊，不是你錯也不是我錯，
我也感到極度無可奈何，對不起，再見。
要多好聽便說得多好聽。 其實，簡單一點地理解，
就是「我已經不愛你了」。

只是，塗個「Timing不對」的化妝，
看起來就沒那麼負心沒那麼絕情，
讓自己的下台階可以走得順滑一點吧。 這種Timing不對，九成是瞎掰的，
餘下的一成，就可能是傳說中所謂的「有緣無份」了..!

by flo

病

人总有一种病态
失去后才懂得珍惜..
原来我也病了..
心病了..
人也病了..
人病了..
吃了药会痊愈..
但心病了..
似乎没那么容易痊愈..
搭上了恢复的道路了吗?
但愿如此..

一眼瞬间..
眼前..
过去..
未来..
那么的模糊..
那么的无助..
那么的迷茫..
此时此刻..
想的是什么?
拥有的又是什么?
爱惜自己不就是最好的良药吗?
原来如此..

day 5 in kedah - Mr.Wayne Khor convocation

convocation '09, University Utara Malaysia
once again i be camera man..
guess i did cope it well this time..
haa..
我揸机 = PASS..!

finally..!

3 noobie

queue

H1N1

grandma & cousin

cousin & his family

cousin & teacher currently in PCGHS
:P

cousin & Ching Loo

my dinner..!

once again mc.D

finally back in penang..
but will head to Genting & Malacca later..!
woohoo..
失恋大晒..
rofl..

Jamie said

' life is like a rubic cube,
it is full of color and you will surely face some obstacle before you reach your goal.. '